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I’ve been keeping this little blog of mine for two and a half years now. Sometimes I wonder what my motivations for blogging are, and I always come back to the same things…

I love to keep a journal of our family life, to be able to look back through the years and remember moments in time. To document my children’s childhood, their growth. This blog is a storybook with pictures of our family life. I blog for us and I know we cherish this little record of our life.

I wish I knew more about my childhood - beyond the distant blurry memories. I wish I knew more about my grandparent’s and their parents before them. All I have of these people are a few old black and white photographs, there is nothing to give me an idea of the life they lived or the things they did. Blogging is a way to keep a hold of our everyday moments and look back with fondness. It is also a legacy I leave for my children and their children. Who knows what the future holds for blogs or technology. The world of social media is booming and transforming all the time, but this little space will always be out there for Raff and Elsie to keep.

Why do you blog? What do you love about it?

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A portrait of my children, once a week, every week in 2014, linking up with Jodi for The 52 Project

Sibling love is blossoming over here as Rafferty starts to feel more secure and, in turn, protective of his baby sister. He likes to help feed her, brings her toys she dropped on the floor and tries to make her giggle - more often than not, successfully. It warms my heart to see their relationship flourish this way. She clearly adores him, always looking to find his face in a room and he dotes on her. The first thing he says when he wakes form his nap is “Where’s Elsie mummy?” and whenever she’s taking her nap he says “Elsie wake up!” over and over again.

I’m as pleased as punch to have launched my photography website this week. It’s been an incredible journey getting to this point and I feel so proud when I see how much my work has grown over the past few months. I’m open for bookings from August and beyond and am offering a 10% discount for any booking made before Monday 14th July. Would love you to visit the site, take a look around, and let me know what you think. Do get in touch if you’re interested in having a session with me. I have great hopes for this little venture and am excited about all the families I will meet in the process.

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2014 has been a big year for me so far. Elsie arriving has brought so much light and happiness into our lives. Raff has grown in so many ways over the past 6 months too; speaking in whole sentences, starting at preschool, learning to make friendships and best of all saying the words “I love you Mummy” countless times a day. I feel truly thankful for all 2014 has given me so far and look forward to what is next in store for this sweet little family of mine.

As a mother, time has this amazing ability to stand totally still at points yet swoosh by in a whirlwind of intensity at others. Sometimes I have to pause and take stock, to appreciate the little things in our days and remember how very lucky I am. It’s easy to get caught up in the nuts and bolts of a day rather than breathe in the magic moments and hold onto them a while longer.

My heart is heavy when I think how much the children have changed. I was thinking last night how very blurry Elsie’s first couple of months are in my memory. I wish I could find clarity in those memories and hold onto the little details. Her first 3 months seem like 3 days in my mind. I wish I could revisit them, fall in love with her all over again. There is something amazing about the first weeks with your baby, your heart’s ability to double in size each day, the way you get to know their coos, their cries, their smell. The tenderness of their touch and the incredible honour you feel, caring for someone so very vulnerable.  

Whilst I love the growth and evolution my children go through, and marvel at the wonder each stage seems to bring, I also feel a sense of sadness when each phase passes. I know deep down in my heart I’m letting go of the littleness, and it’s very unlikely I’ll experience it again. Four seems to be our magic number, Elsie has completed our family and we couldn’t have wished for a more beautiful soul to join us.

I also reflect on my own childhood much more these days. On the freedom and happiness you feel when you’re young. Finding everyday things, beautiful, exciting, extraordinary; we can learn so much from children.

I hope I continue to grow as a mother. Every day I learn more about myself, and my capacity to be a nurturer. I understand now, how powerful a force love is. How a mother’s love can be utterly overwhelming at times and will move you to do things, be things, feel things you would otherwise have not. My heart knows no bounds and will go to any lengths to protect and nurture my little ones. And something tells me it will always be this way, for as long as I live.

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A portrait of my children, once a week, every week in 2014.

Rafferty: your love of cars is through the roof at the minute. You get lost in your own little world pushing them around Elsie’s play mat and along the sofa and love me to watch as you play.

Elsie: taken on your 5 month birthday whilst playing in the garden. You’re really interested in people around you and love to chew on your toys. Since you started rolling you spend a lot of time on your tummy reaching out for things I put in front of you. My happy girl.

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A portrait of my children, once a week, every week in 2014. Linking up with Jodi for The 52 Project.

Elsie turned 20 weeks last week and on that very day she learnt to roll over. She hasn’t stopped rolling since! Teething is in full swing - the dribble, the chewing the slight irritability. I feel for this little bird it can’t be nice.

Raff is gaining in independence every day. The tantrums are dwindling and I’m trying a new tact which so far seems to be working. We’re spending much more quality time together, I’m trying to avoid getting sucked into filling my day with chores. Instead we’re making moments like these, playing football in the park by the river with my beautiful boy. Watching him grow into this proper little kiddo always fills me with happiness.

I recently had the pleasure of capturing this sweet family. Little Oscar is an utter heartbreaker already and beautiful Isla’s pensive gaze really opened my eyes as a photographer. I hope you like them too. Yet another step closer to launching my new photography website in my journey to going professional.

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A portrait of my children, once a week, every week in 2014. Linking up with Jodi for The 52 Project.

Last week we went on our first family holiday as a four in Devon. We were unbelievably lucky with the weather, the sun shone every day and we enjoyed slow, lazy days at the beach, little trips across to Mill Bay on the ferry, cream teas, coastal views, sea air, boat spotting and lots of delicious seaside food. The children were in their element and I took a trip down memory lane to childhood holidays of my own in the very same spots we visited. Sometimes you just can’t beat a British holiday!