Just as the park opposite our house has a new playground installed, you seem to become aware of your own mortality and go from sliding down the slide head first to holding back and thinking it through. I see so much of my childhood self in you these days… you’re cautious rather than impulsive. You prefer to step back and watch a while before deciding if you’ll join in. I’d love to see you go down the slide head first again, that kind of confidence is such a gift my darling x
You have a mind of your own and refuse to be tamed. The sight of your wispiness has been known to make me go a little weak at the knees. A word of warning though - we are building up for a trim very soon, so make the most of this damp weather while you can!
Love me x
There aren’t many pictures of us two, and the ones that there are, I cherish, even if they are a little fuzzy and you’re pulling silly faces.
Love mama x
Congratulations to Melanie from Gentle Folk who took part in our giveaway and won her 31 week old baby girl bump a pair of buttery soft All About Heidi ballet pumps.
Man, I am running low on energy reserves these days. This bump of mine is getting bigger and heavier by the day and my toddler, with his iron will, is getting more feisty and stubborn with each week passing. 21 months is tough. Or is it just because I have less stamina at 30 weeks pregnant? It’s hard to tell, but I could really do with another pair of arms and the patience of a saint right now.
I’m not a fan of brandishing little people, still unable to express themselves properly, as ‘terrible’, so I won’t use the old fashioned, derogatory cliche ‘the terrible twos’. But I do believe there is a challenging time in every child’s development. The transition from odd word to full blown sentences; the process of learning to work with mummy not against her; the shift when a child starts to get their head around the concept of sharing, or not having what they want, whenever they want it. There’s an awful lot for these little ones to learn! It’s very easy to forget that we, as sensible, well mannered adults, have had years to perfect being ‘good’. Not to mention the fact that as parents we’re learning on the job, blagging it and all the while hoping nobody notices. I’ve never been taught how to discipline a child, there is sadly no scientifically proven method for encouraging positive behaviour and discouraging bad behaviour that works everytime and has only positive results. Darn - there is no magic wand or secret remedy.. *sobs*
My personal (and limited) experience tells me that it’s an organic process and takes rather a lot of trial and error. The tact our parent’s took isn’t necessarily the right one. And let’s not forget that 2 sets of parents come from 2 sets of parents, so finding a common ground during a civilised conversation between parents and not during the middle of a panicky tantrum takes commitment and a fair bit of forward planning. I’ve definately found that the less reactive I am, the better. I never feel good about the times I’ve handled a situation with anger impulsively and always, after the dust has settled, I’ve winced about how out of control I’ve let the whole thing get when I should be setting an example of keeping calm and composed.
Sometimes I struggle with the fact that my kiddo goes from mama and daddy looking after him one day to Granny the next to the childminder the next. We’ve nerver all sat down and discussed discipline together and I’m sure mixed messages and different care approaches have crept in, much to Rafferty’s confusion and bewilderment.
I guess I believe that every child is different, every parent is different, and there is an element of feeling your way, working together with your partner and your children as a team to figure out what works for you as a family. In the meantime, whilst you find your way, (and I think it can take years by the way), it’s best to cut yourself some slack. I’ve finally decided not to fret if my child acts out and won’t eat his dinner in front of my in-laws or refuses to let me put his coat on in front of the other parents at daycare. Sure, they may take one look and think he is an absolute brat or I am out of control but it doesn’t really matter what anyone else’s thinks. As long as I focus on working on it, giving it time and recognising behaviours are learnt not enforced. I will keep the faith that there’ll come a time my son will be lapping up seconds and thirds of my cooking and if he won’t chow down on broccoli until then, what’s the worst that can happen.
The hardest thing of all of this for me is seeing Rafferty distressed. Last night the mother of all tantrums exploded. It went on, and on, and on! I did manage to keep calm and I didn’t rise to it or punish the behaviour. I tried to sit it out and wait whilst he vented. I don’t think he even understood why he was so mad and upset - I certainly didn’t, it seemed to come from nowhere. But it was painfully heartbreaking to witness my sweet boy get into such a fluster. All I wanted to do was make it stop but I’ve realised that sometimes trying to stop a tantrum can only serve to amplify it. By the time I put him into bed he was exhausted. And so was I. Not just physically but emotionally… I felt I had cried all the tears he’d shed. I felt I had experienced all his frustration right there with him. And I felt sad that I wasn’t able to console this vulnerable boy, whom I love so dearly.
I’m sure 3rd trimester fatigue hasn’t helped. That my anxieties are running high as I try to picture what life with 2 will be like and how the devil I’ll be able to entertain a toddler whilst nursing a newborn. This is a crazy time in life, I’m about to embark on another huge learning curve. So I’m sitting tight, buckling up and riding the storms out. I’ll hold his hand when he needs me, and I’ll try to help guide him as best I know how. But boy oh boy, 21 months at 30 weeks is a tough old game.
I discovered the adorable children’s footwear company All About Heidi 2 years ago through the world of blogging and instantly fell head over heels with the product, which is handmade, practical and stylish.
I’m a great believer in supporting small businesses who craft products by hand so All About Heidi ticks all my kidswear boxes. When I contacted Manuka and Jette to see if they’d partner up for a reader giveaway they were delighted to oblige - hooray!
So why are they so amazing I hear you ask… Every shoe is carefully crafted by hand from one piece of buttery soft leather. The eye catching flower petal design means the shoe can be custom fitted to each individual child’s foot as it allows for you to widen or narrow the shoe with the knot at the front. Because of the softness and quality of the leather, they act like a second skin, giving children’s feet the ability to move naturally as they grow. They’re perfect for crawling, cruising and walking and unlike most baby footwear they stay on! They get better with age as the leather gets even softer and takes on a vintagy feel. And best of all they come in the most delicious colourways!
If you fancy your chances at winning a pair of handcrafted All About Heidi shoes, you can take part by emailing me at firstname.lastname@example.org with the subjectline HEIDI WALKS. Or via instagram by following me @polly__loves (link in sidebar) and @allaboutheidi and reposting the giveaway post from my account to your account with the hash tag #heidiwalks.
The winner will be selected at random on Friday 22nd November. Best of luck!
Sometimes you take my breath away!!
My baby in a onesie, I can’t resist!
Seriously, could you be any more handsome?!
you are changing so much every day as you grow into more of the boy you’ll become.
You’re language is coming on leaps and bounds as you try out new words with great gusto. I marvel at how much of what we say you understand - pretty much everything! You have started to say ‘bee-bee’ (baby), and pointing at my ever expanding tummy. You know the name of all the body parts - hands, toes, nose, ears, eyes… You know all sorts of words in fact - aeroplane, shoes, socks, duck, car, book, door, sofa, sweep, fire engine, train, bus, banana, toast, tea, bib, garden, bathtime, tv… I’ve lost count!
In the last couple of months you have taken to playing out the domestic role and are very attached to your little tea set given to you by your God Mother and your toddler sized broom that granny gave you. You like to sweep up all around our feet each day - always so busy and full of concentration.
We’ve turned a corner at bathtime too as for a while you hated to sit in the bath and were afraid of the water. Now you lie on your front and kick your legs, say ‘no!’ adamantly when we suggest it’s time to get out, and giggle away as you play with all your watery friends.
Perhaps the most noticeable and endearing evolution of your personality is how loving and affectinate you are. You dote on your two special cuddies - Dodo and DogDog. They seem to come everywhere with us now and you give them the sweetest cuddles, offer them milk from your bottles, and wrap them in blankets. You’re also much more attached to daddy and I. You cry when we say bye bye although thankfully not for long, and all is forgotten. You long for cuddles and affection, pulling at our legs and raising your arms up to ours to be held. We are always happy to oblige but I struggle with carrying you these days - not only have your got a lot bigger and heavier but so has my bump and physically I am not as able as I was. Getting you up and down the stairs is a challenge and despite you being more than capable of doing both yourself you seem to prefer being carried, old lazy bones.
One thing is for sure, you’re such a happy, chirpy, sweet natured little boy. I see much of your daddy and I in you but also a strong sense of your self. You are kind and caring and full of love. How lucky I am to be your mama.
Love you always my silly sausage,
ps… I think it’s time for another haircut but I can’t bear to chop off those loose curls. They are the last of your babyness and I will cling on a while longer.
I recently stumbled across the Etsy shop SmArtAnna and fell in love with her amazing bright and bold bib style collars. Each piece is handmade with colourful leather shapes, stitched together to make unique and eye catching necklaces.
I’d pair these with a simple tshirt for minimal effort, maximum quirk.
You can check out SmArtAnna’s shop here
Wall candy for little ones
Zara’s fall/winter collection for little girls is absolutely delicious. I love the sense of nostalgia the Peter Pan collars and floral/tartan prints bring to the range. Zara kids never fail to bring a smile to my face with little quirks such as the bunny rabbit trousers. The collection has filled me with inspiration to get sewing. If only I could sew little mary jane shoes!!
Can you tell I am entering the nesting phase of our build?!?!
You turned 19 months 2 weeks ago today, just as the seasons were turning. Your daddy and I took you walking in the fields near where he grew up and I snapped your monthly portraits. These are some of my favourite pictures of you my sweet child, you look so small in amongst the tall grasses, and so happy.
19 months seems to me a lovely age for you. I’m enjoying watching your imaginative play develop - you love to feed your monkey - dodo, bottles of milk and brush his teeth with your toothbrush. You adore playing with your train set and will sit for long periods playing with the little carriages pushing them round and round. I marvel at how much of what we say you understand and I patiently await your desire to speak more. I tell you about the baby growing inside my tummy, we all point to our tummies and giggle. I don’t think you really understand but I know you’re going to make an awesome big brother, you’re a natural nurturer and very affectionate. I often imagine you showering your baby sister with cuddles and kisses.
Keep on exploring little curious one. Magic is just around the corner.
Love mama x